First, a little story. I went hiking this morning even though it was really cold, like less than ten degrees out, with my awesome friend Sam. And I got a flat tire. And help from a St. Louis County Parks employee, Tom, who changed my tire for me, and Sam, who called AAA just in case Tom couldn't help. And Sam followed me in her car to two repair shops then back to the city when we found out my tire couldn't be repaired, even though it meant she would be late to work. Then I wrote an email to St. Louis County to tell them how awesome Tom was, which got me two nice replies because apparently they mostly get complaints. And Sam's glasses broke on our hike, but she made it back safely even though it was icy and she couldn't see so well. So sometimes good things and bad things are all mixed up together.
I knew this wasn't actually week 24, so I went to my trusty index page to see what week it really was, only to find that I've gone back in time to week 22. Sweet! Who doesn't love extra time? Alas, this is actually week 26 and I need to fix the index.
You may be wondering why this 24 week update of mine is so late. I meant to post something on time. I also meant to do a lot more work on the last few challenges. Sometimes thing don't go as planned. Which brings me to my topic for the day, which is:
What do you do when you don't follow through?
- a) Give up.
- b) Pretend it's not happening.
- c) Try again.
- d) Put yourself through therapy.
I've done the first three. Well, I guess I've kind of explored "d," if you consider talking to friends to be a sort of therapy, which it is, of course, if you have awesome friends like I do.
My friend Sam brought up the idea of attempts. You make an attempt on a project. Hopefully it works, maybe it doesn't. If it doesn't, that's okay. You can make another attempt.
So the last three weeks (Tarantino films, TED Talks on Disease and Start Something You've Been Putting Off - oh, the irony in that one) my attempts pretty much failed. I did watch a lot of movies, but not exactly the right ones, and I didn't finish the project. And I only watched a few TED talks. Worst of all, I only went up and down the basement stairs when necessary. So I am still putting off training for the stair climb.
You can add to the list of fails that I've failed to continue training for the half marathon in April. And while I'm not exactly training for the 5-mile race I signed up for in March, I think I can still do that one IF I'd just get out there and run.
It's interesting how something that was an easy habit can become totally foreign and unfamiliar. For me, the changing point was an illness. It wasn't stress-related, a cold, or anything you could look at and say, "obviously you needed a break." I get ovarian cysts and one ruptured at the beginning of February, which is an awful experience at the time, but short lived. So I was out of commission for a couple days, then I was fine. Fine, except that it seems I no longer care all that much about running.
It doesn't make any sense logically, unless perhaps I also have a brain tumor, which I probably don't. So, I just need to get out there and run again.
Wow, I've almost talked myself into getting out there today. Apparently the solution to losing motivation is to write a blog post about it. I have to admit, sometimes I have no idea how the world actually works.
So after I finish this update I'm going to suit up the dog and take her out for a mile or two. She'll be happy.
24 Week Update
Over the last 12 weeks, I've exercised to prepare to learn to snowboard, started to learn to snowboard, tried to say nothing critical, tried healthy snacking, done some holiday gift decluttering, looked into some dream trips, exercised for a month for Janathon, decluttered the laundry room, tried affirmations, started making smoothies, watched some Tarantino movies, and watched TED talks about disease. Whew.
The dream trip posts were some of the most popular, especially my post about Scotland and Ireland. Oddly enough, my posts from poetry week (during the first 12 weeks) continue to get hits, despite not being very popular at all when they first went up.
The decluttering weeks were my favorites. Now that the laundry room is all clean and organized, I kind of like to hang out there, which I know is weird, but what are you gonna do. If you're weird, you're weird. We continue to declutter on a more casual basis, with loads of stuff leaving the house almost weekly. I have to admit that we are still getting rid of things from the laundry room cleaning. It's always a risk if you keep things around for later, thinking you might sell them or give them to friends. You'll still have them a month later if you're not careful.
And the week that's had the biggest impact was the smoothie week. I have a smoothie every day. I am now making an effort to drink an entire blender-full every day. I had been doing that some days, but other days I'd leave half for the next day. If I drink the whole thing, it's so filling it has to replace a meal, but I like it and even kind of crave it. So I guess it's doing something good.
Looking at the 12 week period like this, I see that there are more successes than failures. But because I'm human and my brain is faulty and prone to error, the three fails in a row overshadow the previous successes. I guess I made my attempts and now I know that if I try similar challenges in the future, I need to try a different approach.
And right now, I'm taking the dog running.
PS - Due to the setting sun, I stopped trying to finish this post and went running. We did 1.63 miles in 20 minutes, basically running Hazel's usual walking route. It was fine. I survived. I don't know why it's been so difficult.