I ran with a group of women I didn't know this morning. Granted, I do know the organizer of the run, but she didn't go with us.
I ran two miles with two strangers. And I survived.
Even though I was committed to going, part of me wanted to turn around while I was walking there, or just keep walking, or otherwise somehow get out of it. I don't understand that impulse, but it's strong.
Because everything was fine. I met some new people. I picked up something I needed at the store afterward, that I've been meaning to get for a while. I even had hot chocolate! So it's rewarding to do things like this, which makes my reluctance that much more of a mystery.
However, while this activity was free, one of the main issues I have with going out and doing things is that things often cost money. Going out to eat, seeing a movie, shopping (obviously) all cost money. I thought about doing a few of those things after the run, but skipped it all because of the cost.
I hadn't thought it this way before, but perhaps I've simply developed a social strategy to save money. Too bad it doesn't work when I'm with other people!
Also, there are plenty of free activities, too, such as this group run. If I had time to go to the St. Louis Art Museum, that would have been free. Parks are free. Libraries are free. I've thought about doing a month-long challenge of partaking only of free activities. I'll have to keep that in mind.
Another challenge I've thought about far this week is that I just don't have a lot of time to go out and be social. I always have a ton of things I need to do at home. It's not that I don't think I need to work on being more social. But I'm starting to think that I need to do it on a regular basis, really question my tendency to say "no" (or, worse, my tendency to say yes then not go), rather than try to cram a bunch of stuff into one week.
So going forward, if I have the opportunity to do something I've never done before, or something with other people that's free, I'll take it.